I'm gonna be straight up with you. This week has been weird. Every time I go away on a cool adventure, I tell myself, don't get weird. I got weird. I don't know. It is like there is this high you get on when you go do something cool or something you see yourself doing in the future. Then you come home, settle back into normal life and it just seems like a low. But it isn't a low. Normal is not a low. And if normal is a low for you, come talk to me. Everyone's normal should be normal. Is this even making sense?

I just wrote an article for Her Campus Pitt, an online magazine which I run the social media for but I write for as well; the article was about how I am in this weird excited/confused state of being an adult. I have never felt so stressed yet here I am in an unicorn onesie writing this blogpost at 1 am.  Life is just really weird right now. I will get through it, I will go back to normal. But for right now.  I am accepting this feeling I am having. Something really great can happen or something really bad can happen but I feel indifferent to it all. Why? Life just felt like it was passing by this week. I wasn't taking it all in like I am used to.

Maybe we all need a week or two or life just passing by and us not really caring to realize how awesome the other fifty or so weeks really are. We can't always be at our high and we sure as heck can't be at our low, normal has to happen at some points to help us realize our high and low.

I also feel like my friends think it is something against them. It almost never is. The amount of stress I put on myself is crazy but I love it. I love having something to do and doing my best at it. But even during these "weird weeks" the stress I put on myself doesn't seem to matter. Like I said, it is all just kind of going along. So friend reading this, I can't really be cheered up, I just need to snap out of it (and I will, don't worry).

These weird weeks are something I have come to accept and I think if I didn't accept them, I would question if the high and low weeks were worth it; they are almost always are. So if you are having a weird week, its okay. You don't always need to be changing the world, you can sit back and just let it pass for a bit. But don't let it pass for too long, life is way too cool for that ish to just fly by you.

I'm sorry about this weirdly personal, horribly written blogpost today (I technically didn't sleep yet so I count this as on time for a Wednesday blog post), like I said, this week has been so weird. Let's hope next week I will snap out of this and we can go back to giggling about water leaking in my roof or our favorite nail colors!

XOXO -M.S.

Alright, so this post was meant to go up on Wednesday but I can't tell a lie, Wednesday was crazy. It was the seniors' Pitt 100 days. Meaning, I have (had) 100 days until graduation. Meaning, 100 days until I was meant to be free. 100 days to find a job. 100 days to find a place to live. 100 days to enjoy being this close to my friends. 100 days. 100.


Talk about stress. I even have a countdown next to my desk to remind myself that I only have, well writing this, 96 days. Wow.

Granted there are some really amazing things happening in my life. I work so hard to make sure there is always something I am working towards. Sitting still is not something I can just deal with. Which is probably why I decided to post twice a week on my YouTube channel and this blog twice a week. I can't handle not doing something. #Workaholic



I learned a lot about myself as well over these years. I've realized I like people but really only people that are willing to handle my crazy work schedule I put on myself. I also learned that I am kind of a neat person (not neat as in cool but neat as in my room is clean). Now looking back at this I laugh, my room at home is a hot mess but I think as I came to living in an apartment and hosting parties, I like people to think I have it all together. So, I am sorry roommates for always folding the blankets and fixing the pillows. God bless anyone who wants to be my roommate in the future.

So, yes, I have learned a load about myself in college. And it scares me to know I only have 100, well 96 days, to discover myself more. Here is to the next 100 days. Let's hope I go out on a high note and with a smile on my face (happy tears included.)



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See you next week!

XOXO -M.S.