I graduate on the 26th. Like, I am done all my formal education….bye elementary school, middle school, high school, and now college. Personally, I feel like where my career is (hopefully) headed, I don't need graduate school quite yet. So that means, I'm done.

I'm done.

W.T.F.

I am writing this at 2am so I can schedule it because I still find it so important to stick to a schedule. I have less than 2 weeks and the amount of work I have to finish, is insane. And I have to pack up my apartment? And apply for jobs? And accept that my sister won't be attending my graduation? I think that is the hardest part of all of this. But I know, it is for her best. My best is that I finished these four insane years and her best is now in high school, doing a sport she loves (and is actually really good at). So Colton, I don't even know if you read these, but I seriously want you to kick some butt at your crew races that weekend. Row harder, sweat a bit more and beat that competition. And I think as I have grown up, I have realized just how much she has missed for my sake. I even feel bad that my parents are missing her races for my graduation. Obviously, they want to be here for this because it is college graduation but I can't help I am taking our parents away from something that is important to her.

I'm sorry this is so sappy.

I'm tired. I have stopped eating bread and drinking diet coke (I know what the actual eff, who am I?) in hopes of really getting my health back to where I want it. Ok, done with this weirdly long blogpost about my sister.

I still can't believe graduation is like soon. Like really soon. Is quarter life crisis a thing? Because I this is insane, I'm stressed but excited and confused all at the same time. I think once I find a job and really breathe after these weeks, I will be back to myself. Let's hope.

I am excited to graduate but I have never felt so stressed and tired in my life.

Hope your week is going better than mine!

XOXO -M.S.